A New Adventure

I am blessed. I am so blessed to be the mom of my precious heart baby. And I say this as we are currently knee deep into the second straight month of extreme mental health for my sweet girl. It has not been easy last month and this month, especially with her now living two hours away.

So, how can I say am I am so blessed with all of this turmoil going on? I am blessed because God gave me the opportunity to help this child. I dread to think where she might be without such a loving, overly involved mom who refuses to give up on her like so many have given up on her in the past. I don’t say this to bring attention to myself. I say this because I know not everyone can handle a child like my heart baby (sometimes I even question my ability to parent her well). God knew what he was doing when he put us together.

These past few months have been such a roller coaster with her and the writing of my book. I am seeing more and more everyday how God has given me such a great opportunity to write about teenage adoption as a single parent. And to bring awareness to these things and the mental health needs of people who have experienced trauma in their lives. My website is now up and running and I also have my very own business cards. And God has given me a wonderful opportunity and I am about to embark upon another adventure.

I have been given the opportunity to attend a writer’s/speaker’s conference through Proverbs 31 ministries. When I signed up for it, I was offered the opportunity to schedule a 15 minute one on one meeting with a publisher. Of course I have to jump at the chance to promote this book and bring awareness to teenage and single parent adoption. This conference is not cheap, but so worth it. I am taking a step out on faith by doing this.

Since signing up for this conference, I have been used in some amazing ways. From the website, to naming the book, to just being open and willing to be used. It has been amazing. When I signed up, I was under the impression I would get a meeting with one publisher, but they had me choose my top five picks. I recently received my schedule and I have meetings with 3 publishers!!! I am nervously excited (is that a thing?)

But then there is my sweet girl. And when I get the phone calls that she has taken off again, or has attempted to do something else unsafe, I think “God, how can I do this? How can I keep plugging along at this book, preparing for the conference, when her mental health is tanking?” But then I pray my prayer for her “Lord, protect her from herself.” She also currently has a wonderful team who is not giving up on her yet. Given heart baby’s unique challenges when it comes to supporting her, this is nearly impossible to find. She doesn’t see it that way, but she is so blessed to have them in her life.

So, this new adventure related to my heart baby and the book begins! I am excited to see how God uses me next.